Its true i’ve aproached that time in my life where I don’t know where I stand anymore thats my love life and my career. I am confused this week there been so much going on about me and leanne its just now pissing me off, there was people making all kinds of stuff up like rape and me and leanne will both say that not true at all.

People who know me in person knows that not true at all and that I wouldn’t do anything to harm anything really.. im a pu55y. I find it quite amusing when people think its sad because I don’t fight and i’d rather talk things out because it shows just what type of person they really are.

Talking with your fists where does that get you? Nowhere. I’m lost with my love life because well me and leanne are talkin again and we have started to sort out our differences and because well I am open I told alot of people what happened… not bragging or anything but I told them my side of the story.

This turned into rumours and because a direct attack towards leanne but we have both sorted out what happened and equally took the blame not just me which made me feel alot better. We have both now gotta try sort out what happens next this first starts off with trust and honesty.

I majorly misunderstood leanne and now im paying the price and kicking myself for it. Now I have been thinking out what I want to do for a career all I really ever wanted to do was be a system admin (networking/servers/etc) since I already self-taught myself all that stuff years ago.

But a week ago in one of my lessons a member of staff was talkin to another member of staff about being a tutor/teacher.. . This made me think I wouldn’t want to be a school teacher… there lives suck… I wouldn’t want to be constantly shouting at kids telling them to do such boring work like excel and word…

I’d like to teach college students though I think (actaully I know I can) stand up in front of 20 odd people and teach them about why AMD owns Intel for 1hr lol or why sticking things other than a floppy disc in the drive is a bad thing… I could keep it going but I wont. I think I could do it as college students are “alot more mature” to some degree we have a laugh but we have a laugh with the tutors too.

An aprentiship would be good i’d like that but I wouldnt want to lose out on Nat Dip i love the course and made some really good mates too.

Oh god 158 today have problems first thing this morning we walked in and it stung pretty badly… at the front of the class was a bucket and a hole in the ceiling… hmmm well suddenly we all heard water… and water began to drip out this hole quite alot within minutes the room stang of what I can describe as… 3 week old sh*t + some type of green discharge! in other words it was rank.

We then found out there was girls toilets right above where it was dripping and then we was expecting a great big sh…. ok moving on… we left the room promptly soon afterwards. Damn that room smelt. The week has been alright I guess and now I have a weekend to spend with my mummy who has come over today I aint seen her yet but I can’t wait.

I’m now bored… Its a friday night with hardly anyone online I aint really eating anything I did have soup but I aint had much of that either so I guess i’ll jus wel errm listen to music or something oh yeah little tip.

Don’t watch pirated DVD’s if your trying to impress a girl most of the time there complete crap and dont really impress the girl at all infact I don’t think pirated DVD’s are good at all the quality is terrible… random inser there but oh well. If you like My Chemical Romance they got a new song out if you didnt already know and heres the video to it its pretty good… but I dont like his hair. [Thanks Nat]

Watch it here else if its down look here

[UPDATE]

As said by Gerard in a recent interview: “This album is a story of a man, known as ‘The Patient’ who dies in a hospital. He goes on an odyssey and examines his life and the mistakes he has made. Gerard says he cut and dyed his hair bleach blonde to look like The Patient (many fans do not realize this), and his new look resembles a man who’s gone through chemotherapy.

Thats all really sorry its not embedded having a few problems with it screwin the site up guess i’ll work on that lol thanks for reading.

- Tom Parker

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First of all me and Leanne didnt get on aswell as we thought it went, it wasn’t my option to edit last weeks post either, nuff said. So instead of spending loads of money on her I bought a iPod nano 2 to cheer myself up…

So the week has been up and down really the one thing I put my trust and love into f**ked me over. I spent 2 months doing so much for her always being there when she’s needed me protecting her alsorts I finally get her and it just f**ks up well badly and I just feel sh*t. Lost all trust in girls right now.

Tuesday was just your normal day of college having a laugh and doing our C++, Wednesday well… I wasn’t very well at all didnt really do much just mooch arround college which at the same time spread to Rich… oops.. Thursday I didn’t go in at all I stayed in bed till 12 then magically got better about 2pm.. Friday that was a good day and Leanne stopped the night and well lets just leave it there.

Leanne stopped the night and went home in the afternoon, that day was just tears for me. Today we went up Peterboro and had a walk around Queens Gate and I see the new iPod nano 2 and I thought to myself…gotta have that! so here I present my first ever piece of Apple Hardware:

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As you can see its very slim and small and holding it it feels very strong and ridgid its come with some fairly good quality headphones but I like my £4 earplugs better… It works really nicely with iTunes 7.01 and I love how I can sync things really fast lol.

If your looking for somewhere to eat in Peterboro, don’t goto Paul Pry the menu there has got really bad there was only 6 main meals and they removed my favorite dish.. Lamb Shank.. Tom not impressed.. They got Joes soup wrong but they did take it off the bill and well his steak was cr@p. When we ordered we was faced with a £27 bill because the previous people didnt pay… wonder why!

So thats all really back to college Tuesday

- Tom Parker

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This week has been just your average week, Monday Rich passed his driving test… well done on you mate where as I was dragged to Stickney, Spilsby and that other one… errrm… ok cant remember what it was called but we had to go look at some mega boring tractor part… Yes I no! That was Monday.Tuesday we errrm did something I think thats called work most of that was C++ (After a while coding you start to think in c++) My assignment is very nearly finished. so im pretty happy with that.
Wednesday errrm we did some more work cant remember exactly but we had a good laugh like always. didn’t see Leanne because tom was in stalking her etc, so I stayed away. I didnt really do anything that day lol. Oh oh LSU… yeah that was errr fun, did subtractions lol.

Thursday errm I did college work as normal hmmm now I think about it the first part of this week was boring… Thursday night Tasha come round all upset etc so I was trying to sort that out but after that she wanted to go home and tried to run infront of a car… so i pulled her off the road and tried to talk to her in the end it got her home… we aint really talking now.

Friday… disapeared
Thats all really

PS: NASTY MSN VIRUS GOING ABOUT

Example:

‘omg, is that you? :S http://photodbase.ph.funpic.org/photos.php?photo=photo2342.jpg’

Don’t click it or your will get a load of viruses and stuff like my brother lol. Working on a way to remove it…

- Tom Parker

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I’ll get to the title in a bit…
Ok first i’d like to say one of our fish was killed today in one of the most horrible ways to die… in the pump. Well my grentz was cleaning out the filter and they see all this white “plastic” as they called it well they cleared all that out turned the pump on and no water was coming out, they called down to have a look at it.

Well i took it the pump to bits to find a rather mangled fish and loads bones in the pump which was stopping the water coming out of it, not a very nice job at all inside the pump it looks like a waste disposal so the fish suffered a rather horrible death…

Moving on… I have to do learning support at college because im thick… ok not thick but I can’t do maths at all well I can but I don’t have any confidence and the way I work out my maths is a unique way that they have never seen… basically say I had to add 9 and 7 I cant do it unless i even them out to 8 and 8 sure this method works but it doesnt with bigger numbers so there gonna help me with that…

I could also be mildly dislexic too..something to do with my homophones (wiki page here) and I think they can do soething about that too right now I got all that over, whats the title about? well you know them that are the voice for the students i’m one of them guys and I think we already have some ideas that want putting forward some of these are:

1. Using a card at the canteen (highly unlikely)
2. Healthier food at canteen, This one was brought up by staff
3. IT Common room, yeah that was brought up last year in First Dip IT by students and staff
4. Adobe Photoshop or Adobe Photoshop Elements (cheaper) would be nice…
5. GIMP updated to 2.2
6. Firefox or Opera… Firefox is better!
7. Replace the tiny 14 inch monitlors in 150 because there max resolution is 800×600 nobody can work properly with that resolution!

Thats all for now… i’ll keep adding to the list as more people suggest more things to me if I could get a online poll system up and running that would show what the students would like to prioritize most.

Leanne was supposed to be coming round today but again isn’t coming round so im sulking about that.. Me and Shelly are talking on msn but not face to face….yet. I guess thats it really… Mum and dads phone line is down tried to ring that for 4 days now no answer rang mobile and had a 5 min talk she gonna ring tonight too hopefully so we can have a decent convo!

Made loads of new mates at college theres Jamie, Brad, Jake, Glen and Katie there the main ones don’t be offended if I have forgotten you, I have a sh*t memory lol. Thats all really, congratz to Pete sis getting married today too!

Oh yeh New competition every week i’ll be looking at the drawings and picking out the best once a week So get drawing! Webcam is down while I sort it out to run on Mac and Windows because i’m multibooting for college! (Damn c++)

- Tom Parker

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College is a place for learning but also a place for having fun… while learning, everyday we have a bloody good laugh either green discharge jokes or just generally cracking jokes and making everyone laugh. I feel that having a good laugh just relaxes things and helps us get on with our work in one way.

So yeah college is good and we having been buliding our first C++ application (command prompt basic kinda thing) which is our assignment, I will be once again putting it on the net for user testing and hope I get about 20 or so users from different levels testing it out… I HOPE.

My love life errrm is well complicated exspecially with leanne i don’t think we will ever get together now, I keep getting asked out by other people but… mmm i dunno I just don’t feel like having a gf anymore just get hurt all the time so why even bother?

See sheena today got a hug off her too gotta luv her really so yeh we was in the park rich and the other was playing footy i was in my usual lazy mood and decided to get some food yum chips and cheese (one of the most unhealthy things ever)

thats all really errrm if your search for “Tom Parker” on google.com i am now frontpage result not the top yet.. and google.co.uk is on the second page second result… (need to improve that) but if your ever searching for my blog stick in “Tom Parker blog” or something along them lines you should find me easier that way.

Thats it really, Well I really wanna talk to shelly but “something” is stopping me god knows that it is because its just really wierd and does my head in cuz i like walk off when she appears to the scene its like so anti-socialableand I dont like doing it.

Ok well now I said that at least someone will read that and tell her… oh god damnit… grrr but still… grrr! Who thinks I should talk to her? I wouldn’t know what to say well I guess the first thing would be to say sorry for the whole mess I got into end of college… even I didn’t know I could get into that state…

And thats about it really errrm had to install windows on mac because i needed C++ I am currently hax0ring up my webcam so it works on both OS (operating systems)… im so smart ;p adding more features (mostly admin and monitoring) to the site to make things easier and exploring new ways of blogging

Draw pad is still up and going strong keep on sticking your drawings up there fun to look at (wont work on college computers though) and I think finally thats it… thanks for reading and sorry for the slow update lol

- Tom Parker

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