Its true i’ve aproached that time in my life where I don’t know where I stand anymore thats my love life and my career. I am confused this week there been so much going on about me and leanne its just now pissing me off, there was people making all kinds of stuff up like rape and me and leanne will both say that not true at all.

People who know me in person knows that not true at all and that I wouldn’t do anything to harm anything really.. im a pu55y. I find it quite amusing when people think its sad because I don’t fight and i’d rather talk things out because it shows just what type of person they really are.

Talking with your fists where does that get you? Nowhere. I’m lost with my love life because well me and leanne are talkin again and we have started to sort out our differences and because well I am open I told alot of people what happened… not bragging or anything but I told them my side of the story.

This turned into rumours and because a direct attack towards leanne but we have both sorted out what happened and equally took the blame not just me which made me feel alot better. We have both now gotta try sort out what happens next this first starts off with trust and honesty.

I majorly misunderstood leanne and now im paying the price and kicking myself for it. Now I have been thinking out what I want to do for a career all I really ever wanted to do was be a system admin (networking/servers/etc) since I already self-taught myself all that stuff years ago.

But a week ago in one of my lessons a member of staff was talkin to another member of staff about being a tutor/teacher.. . This made me think I wouldn’t want to be a school teacher… there lives suck… I wouldn’t want to be constantly shouting at kids telling them to do such boring work like excel and word…

I’d like to teach college students though I think (actaully I know I can) stand up in front of 20 odd people and teach them about why AMD owns Intel for 1hr lol or why sticking things other than a floppy disc in the drive is a bad thing… I could keep it going but I wont. I think I could do it as college students are “alot more mature” to some degree we have a laugh but we have a laugh with the tutors too.

An aprentiship would be good i’d like that but I wouldnt want to lose out on Nat Dip i love the course and made some really good mates too.

Oh god 158 today have problems first thing this morning we walked in and it stung pretty badly… at the front of the class was a bucket and a hole in the ceiling… hmmm well suddenly we all heard water… and water began to drip out this hole quite alot within minutes the room stang of what I can describe as… 3 week old sh*t + some type of green discharge! in other words it was rank.

We then found out there was girls toilets right above where it was dripping and then we was expecting a great big sh…. ok moving on… we left the room promptly soon afterwards. Damn that room smelt. The week has been alright I guess and now I have a weekend to spend with my mummy who has come over today I aint seen her yet but I can’t wait.

I’m now bored… Its a friday night with hardly anyone online I aint really eating anything I did have soup but I aint had much of that either so I guess i’ll jus wel errm listen to music or something oh yeah little tip.

Don’t watch pirated DVD’s if your trying to impress a girl most of the time there complete crap and dont really impress the girl at all infact I don’t think pirated DVD’s are good at all the quality is terrible… random inser there but oh well. If you like My Chemical Romance they got a new song out if you didnt already know and heres the video to it its pretty good… but I dont like his hair. [Thanks Nat]

Watch it here else if its down look here

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As said by Gerard in a recent interview: “This album is a story of a man, known as ‘The Patient’ who dies in a hospital. He goes on an odyssey and examines his life and the mistakes he has made. Gerard says he cut and dyed his hair bleach blonde to look like The Patient (many fans do not realize this), and his new look resembles a man who’s gone through chemotherapy.

Thats all really sorry its not embedded having a few problems with it screwin the site up guess i’ll work on that lol thanks for reading.

- Tom Parker

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College is a place for learning but also a place for having fun… while learning, everyday we have a bloody good laugh either green discharge jokes or just generally cracking jokes and making everyone laugh. I feel that having a good laugh just relaxes things and helps us get on with our work in one way.

So yeah college is good and we having been buliding our first C++ application (command prompt basic kinda thing) which is our assignment, I will be once again putting it on the net for user testing and hope I get about 20 or so users from different levels testing it out… I HOPE.

My love life errrm is well complicated exspecially with leanne i don’t think we will ever get together now, I keep getting asked out by other people but… mmm i dunno I just don’t feel like having a gf anymore just get hurt all the time so why even bother?

See sheena today got a hug off her too gotta luv her really so yeh we was in the park rich and the other was playing footy i was in my usual lazy mood and decided to get some food yum chips and cheese (one of the most unhealthy things ever)

thats all really errrm if your search for “Tom Parker” on google.com i am now frontpage result not the top yet.. and google.co.uk is on the second page second result… (need to improve that) but if your ever searching for my blog stick in “Tom Parker blog” or something along them lines you should find me easier that way.

Thats it really, Well I really wanna talk to shelly but “something” is stopping me god knows that it is because its just really wierd and does my head in cuz i like walk off when she appears to the scene its like so anti-socialableand I dont like doing it.

Ok well now I said that at least someone will read that and tell her… oh god damnit… grrr but still… grrr! Who thinks I should talk to her? I wouldn’t know what to say well I guess the first thing would be to say sorry for the whole mess I got into end of college… even I didn’t know I could get into that state…

And thats about it really errrm had to install windows on mac because i needed C++ I am currently hax0ring up my webcam so it works on both OS (operating systems)… im so smart ;p adding more features (mostly admin and monitoring) to the site to make things easier and exploring new ways of blogging

Draw pad is still up and going strong keep on sticking your drawings up there fun to look at (wont work on college computers though) and I think finally thats it… thanks for reading and sorry for the slow update lol

- Tom Parker

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If you missed part 1 its here

Saturday, oh dear nose bleed and the sun had hit me from the previous day tidied up the house lol stayed in the, heat made me go dizzy . Was supposed to had gone out for a BBQ but I really didn’t feel well so I stopped in dad had a lot to drink mum was not happy she took Deb Rob and Claire up village.

Dad was supposed to do the BBQ but stormed home because there was no buns! So he cooked steak for both of us mum came home they wouldn’t talk to each other, I went to bed after a talk with mum.

Sunday, I was supposed to had gone to work with my mum but wasn’t well at all had a high temp and nose bleed (what a surprise) and I was also sick, It was mums birthday that day and I gave her a card and her present, I bought her a MP3 player and she’s always using it . That night we went out for a meal at a place called The Portabella it was a really nice meal Deb, Rob and Claire came with us as well as mums boss after we had our meal we went to a ice cream parlor yum :P. Thats about it really they come back to ours for a drink me and Claire watched Garfield 2 it was quite funny lol.

Monday, felt a bit better so I sun bathed all day then in the evening went out with rents and her boss and her hubby, Lee. We went to a new Chinese restaurant that had opened just that night service was bit slow but the meal was nice! Thats about it that happened that night.

Tuesday and Wednesday,I think I went in the pool and sun bathed lol thats all I did for the whole week, guess thats the idea of going on holiday lol.

Thursday, Deb, Rob and Claire went home and I went in the pool I guess u get the idea I had a few more nose bleeds yeah I think I need help like Rich said but the feeling of a hot metal rod up my nose is not very nice

Part 3 coming in a few days time Thanks for reading
- Tom Parker

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Well I wasn't gonna post till like wednesday when something special happens but I just couldn't resist… Well friday I really did get a shock I walked in and rich say "Emma wants a word with you" I'm like me… why me.. seemed shelly still has feelings for me and wanted to talk… my face litery looked like this:

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Ok well not that bad but still I was shocked. So the day carried on as normal then I got a email from shelly which hardcore replied with "I love you" true but im not a person to blurt that out Well I emailed back we got talking, then we met up talked some more sorted out some bits and more talking. We hugged each other it felt so right then her bf walked in well shelly was gonna end it with him anyway so I had nothing to worry about.

Alot of people won't agree with what I have done, but its my life I am only young, I am gonna give her one more chance but I believe that me and her are ment for each other. We still had feelings for each other whats the point in hidding them?

Well thats about all thats happened oh I got my tire sorted of course my nan had to get involved and make things worst "oh you need to put some air in all the tire" and she kept windging so I though "hey I can't see what the harm will be in that". So i got the pump out got it all going had my radio on etc, pump started to stutter and then died.

Wierd when to start car up.. dead. Battery had gone flat from the pump and radio typical! oh dear it starts to rain and I have a window open… electric windows… cant shut them… NOOOOO! So I had to go find something to cover the window with "wheres all the polythene? Ok i'll just use cardboard" it did the job…

Battery on charge for about a hour give it enough juice to start and close window so I cheered up after that but that cars all muddy now from the pissing rain. I'll have to clean it and try out this new t cut stuff I got :D. Oh and my car has a name now she is called Alicia lmao.

ok expect next update wednesday thats the big day would spoil the suprise though Some of you already know though

Thanks for reading oh and theres some more suprises in store and a new feature on the way!

- Tom Parker

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Yeah as promised a new post. Today tomwrote.info is exactly 1 year old and its been a busy and popular site and it just get better and better. So heres to tomwrote.info, for many years to come, hopefully! Well I thought i'd dig up some of the past on this blog A post from April 3rd 2005 not a very interesting post really but either way its interesting how this blog has succeeded since 2005.

I have not really done much since the last update… Thursday I see shelly and spent half a day with her we went to the park and talked loads, suprising we got to know a little bit more of each other which was great! Friday… nothing much happened finally got my folders handed in for marking *urgh* hopefully they will be ok

Saturday I had a driving lesson, bay parking and parallel parking (or something I dunno lol) Sunday was good we went out for a meal in boston at a place called the morrs arms or something but it wasn't as good as the red lion to be honest.. infact my beef was coldish so I wasn;t too pleased.

Nana still isn't eating much infact aunty bet is copying nana cuz she aint eating much either… Joe had another go at nana cuz she is making his life a missery awww poor joe lol! Ohhhh friday night I was kinda annoyed my 5 month old Sony E, K700i died on me so i've sent it back for repair and bought a Nokia 6600, when the phone comes back i'll sell it on eBay… Nana moaned, I ignored.

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Tomwrote recieved in total 85450 hits for march I was pretty impressed with it! i've been updating some parts of the site so bare with me if you find a error on the image gallery parts as they have been upgraded and need porting over to Midnight: 06! Theres some other odd tweaks i've added another one is the minimize and maximize of the archives, more of a space saving feature really.

Speaking of space, the sidebar is still being redone as the last one wasnt working out and takes up too much room I am trying to work out a solution to it but so far the only idea I come up with is 2 sidebars.. That could be deployed on Midnight: 06.5 but its depends how hard that is to code… another is AJAX… Something I have not really messed about with.. Dodgy.
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Oh mum and dad have sold the house in spain and are currently on the look out for a new place this is what they have currently got there eyes on and its looking great!

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well theres another update!

Thanks for reading!

- Tom Parker

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