Its true i’ve aproached that time in my life where I don’t know where I stand anymore thats my love life and my career. I am confused this week there been so much going on about me and leanne its just now pissing me off, there was people making all kinds of stuff up like rape and me and leanne will both say that not true at all.

People who know me in person knows that not true at all and that I wouldn’t do anything to harm anything really.. im a pu55y. I find it quite amusing when people think its sad because I don’t fight and i’d rather talk things out because it shows just what type of person they really are.

Talking with your fists where does that get you? Nowhere. I’m lost with my love life because well me and leanne are talkin again and we have started to sort out our differences and because well I am open I told alot of people what happened… not bragging or anything but I told them my side of the story.

This turned into rumours and because a direct attack towards leanne but we have both sorted out what happened and equally took the blame not just me which made me feel alot better. We have both now gotta try sort out what happens next this first starts off with trust and honesty.

I majorly misunderstood leanne and now im paying the price and kicking myself for it. Now I have been thinking out what I want to do for a career all I really ever wanted to do was be a system admin (networking/servers/etc) since I already self-taught myself all that stuff years ago.

But a week ago in one of my lessons a member of staff was talkin to another member of staff about being a tutor/teacher.. . This made me think I wouldn’t want to be a school teacher… there lives suck… I wouldn’t want to be constantly shouting at kids telling them to do such boring work like excel and word…

I’d like to teach college students though I think (actaully I know I can) stand up in front of 20 odd people and teach them about why AMD owns Intel for 1hr lol or why sticking things other than a floppy disc in the drive is a bad thing… I could keep it going but I wont. I think I could do it as college students are “alot more mature” to some degree we have a laugh but we have a laugh with the tutors too.

An aprentiship would be good i’d like that but I wouldnt want to lose out on Nat Dip i love the course and made some really good mates too.

Oh god 158 today have problems first thing this morning we walked in and it stung pretty badly… at the front of the class was a bucket and a hole in the ceiling… hmmm well suddenly we all heard water… and water began to drip out this hole quite alot within minutes the room stang of what I can describe as… 3 week old sh*t + some type of green discharge! in other words it was rank.

We then found out there was girls toilets right above where it was dripping and then we was expecting a great big sh…. ok moving on… we left the room promptly soon afterwards. Damn that room smelt. The week has been alright I guess and now I have a weekend to spend with my mummy who has come over today I aint seen her yet but I can’t wait.

I’m now bored… Its a friday night with hardly anyone online I aint really eating anything I did have soup but I aint had much of that either so I guess i’ll jus wel errm listen to music or something oh yeah little tip.

Don’t watch pirated DVD’s if your trying to impress a girl most of the time there complete crap and dont really impress the girl at all infact I don’t think pirated DVD’s are good at all the quality is terrible… random inser there but oh well. If you like My Chemical Romance they got a new song out if you didnt already know and heres the video to it its pretty good… but I dont like his hair. [Thanks Nat]

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[UPDATE]

As said by Gerard in a recent interview: “This album is a story of a man, known as ‘The Patient’ who dies in a hospital. He goes on an odyssey and examines his life and the mistakes he has made. Gerard says he cut and dyed his hair bleach blonde to look like The Patient (many fans do not realize this), and his new look resembles a man who’s gone through chemotherapy.

Thats all really sorry its not embedded having a few problems with it screwin the site up guess i’ll work on that lol thanks for reading.

- Tom Parker

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